Last Christmas

Merry Christmasssss readers! I like the simple christmas this year, even though I could not feel the atmosphere with parties, turkeys, presents, christmas trees, gingerbread etc but I have a warm christmas eve with my best people!

I'm fear of losing them, they have got their results few days ago which means they are on their ways to get into Unis now, the worst thing is they gonna study abroad! I understand that everyone has to move on, but I cant imagine the days without them :( By the way seeing them busy applying unis made me quite nervous, because I was totally blank about my future and helpless.

I had been to somewhere lately, sighed because the world turned upside down within a year. I could vividly remember that how I spent my after-SPM-days, and I compare the people, the things, the atmospheres, they are no longer the same ones and it's kinda creepy sometimes when I'm amazed by how things changed. No hard feelings but wow, this is the fact huh. And I just saw a quote in tumblr, "The hardest part of moving forward is not looking back", lol actually these quotes are kinda ddly for me but it's undeniable that some quotes can really stuck in your mind and they do affect the decisions you make.

2011 is approaching, 2010 is going to be another failed year again :( I dont quite enjoy the 2010 although I get to meet a lots of people, because I think I have not grown up at all and old bad habits - laziness, superficiality, nails-biting(LOL), childishness, unorganizedness ETC - are still sticking with me. And I know that it may take years for me to get over all of these, unless I have found motivations in the years ahead. For the year 2011, I wish to fulfill my little little pleasureful dreams like photography and travelings but I know I will not have times for traveling next year, guess it has to be delayed to 2012 ;(





INSPIRATIONS AND MOTIVATIONS STILL DONT WANT TO COME KAH?