I'm so sick of the college dramas, I ask for a lively yet simple college stories but this would never happen. For instance, there is this very controversial matter to argue with in college now, where no one understand the pains and hatreds. How'd I feel when everyone shook their heads? I feel extremely helpless. I've learnt so many from college, the fact is you never know the world if you never fall, freaking rub your eyes and get prepared for all the heartbreaks before you step into 20s or into the adult's world. I never say they are wrong but sorry I couldnt bear with it, it's most probably my own petty thinking. Seriously I dont want to talk about this anymore, just freaking ignore me will do. But anyway I have my own limitations also, just dont go beyond it, but actually these so called limitations are worthless anyhow because people just dont give a damn. When you dont say a single thing, people think you're peculiar; when you have too much to say, I think it'd be better if you shut the mouth up.
What a police.
I dont know how to describe this feelings right now, I'm writing this with tears because it's not because of the devil or even my principles, I know this principle is also as worthless as my limitations, it's perhaps how the mind is devastated now. I'm mentally weak, I cannot accept the way he threw me the book and asked me to put the money in. Think of it now, I feel like I am a rubbish human being, the hands are indeed dirty and how ugly I am. I was so angry at first but at this moment I wish I can chop my hands off. Thanks to this police I know I wouldnt want to stay in MALAYSIA anymore, this rubbish country is so contaminated I wonder whether the bloody polices will have to go through a lesson called 'All About Bribery'.
The one last thing is, which I have to repeat what I've written, ''There are only some certain people you wanna run to, but they never take you prominently.'' I was asked a question today, which I thought I could give an answer immediately, I hesitated. This hesitation sucks, I probably do not know what do I live for now. I think I've just lost the one important thing, I somehow believe that this is the karma I should receive. If this is it, then I'll take it. I've lost too much.
I need a walk.
2 comments:
hey, this taught you a lesson: Do remember to bring your IC! =D BTW, not all of the mata are same, but the percentage is so low ,that you can find it maybe once,or no in your lifetime. haha, cheer up! ^-^
definitely agree with ahni, dont know what happened to u though. cheer up weih, i know it's abit too late for me to say this but ya, cheer up!
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