Bidding Goodbyes.

It's really hard to bid goodbyes to those friends whom you truly appreciate. I had one tearful farewell and even if I got to see him every 6 months I would still feel a little sad whenever he has to go back there again, even we had several gatherings before his departure. I seem to be a little greedy when it comes to grabbing every chances to be with them, you know it's kinda unproductive to just sitting there and talk some lame jokes, but frankly I never want to be the one who have to leave earlier. I embrace them and the friendships from the bottom of my heart.

They are probably the best wizards and witches and give the greatest portions to cure psychological madness. I was having some agonies back then, and I clearly know that everything will be okay as soon as I see them! Every ache will be cured and even though they didnt really help but I feel relieved when I was complaining all those bloody dramas to them. They are like my sisters and brothers, we can understand each other just by having eye contacts.

The one and only fat one will be leaving in few hours time, and I will not be able to see him for some time. Strangely I dont feel VERY sad, which I thought I WILL because he's so much more than just a friend to me. I find it awkward when we're not talking to each other and I loathe this awkwardness. But it's not a big deal though. I understand this stage of life where we have to say goodbyes, so I would want to face them numbly, perhaps with a smile too :) Or maybe I just realized something, which I thought I was always correct, that turns me like this now. I'm so petty and greedy afterall.

I dont want to fake a smile in college. At this time I just want to finish everything that is in schedule and go to the next chapter of my life. What if I have lost all the motivations to wake up every morning and go to college now? I thought I am happy.

There are only some certain people you wanna run to, but they never take you prominently.