若是不曾走过 怎么懂

Lately I see so many happenings that portrait the ugliness of humanity, which I feel very disappointed with. The hardest thing of this part is to keep all the things to yourself, because you clearly know that no one could help and no one would understand how you actually feel, unless they certainly know what's the exact feeling I'm describing. Sadly to say I could not find anyone around me to share this with, I will be acting like a fool telling all these problems like jokes because I cannot express this complicated feeling in a serious tone. I dont like compliments which I do not recognize, those definitely cannot boost your confidence but bring it to a lower level because only you yourself know the facts. To listen to a compliment which is untrue, it's more like being offended. So I guess I'm offended for so many times, where you can only answer them with a smile, nothing else does.

Sometimes, I really feel so ashamed of myself.