BIG and SMALL

Hi.
Last week was a little exciting because i have went through some critical problems in school, which i did feel like dying to step into the class. I think most of my close friends might now know what was happening as they are all frightened as well as myself, jaw drop.

You cannot believe that this is the truth.
Anyway, i still hating myself for being so timid that i couldnt face it by myself. Im really sorry for that. and we never talk for whole week.

senhong

wanyee and I talked much to him last two days. I think this guy is almost same like me, doesnt like to share, being too optimistic in his life and inserts too much love in himself in front of us. But we started to believe what he'd said after the talking session, maybe he's not that kinda person as we thought.

Zzz why nobody believe that i was really sick on last saturday?
I went to dongshengxiyue at night thou, the performance was literally nice but somehow i dont know how to appreciate it.

i strongly feel that i lost many many things in one day just because of my absence, so i will try my best to present in school everyday and i should start appreciating the every moment i spend with them because majorityly i am no longer a secondary student next year.

Sometimes I really doubt if I can get used to the environment outside, but sincerely hope that everything is fine as my friends are no longer stand by my side. One day I talked a lot to kiaz during the second recess about the AFS, they were paying full attention as well. The feeling was great as I have never had before, so Im thinking that sharing is the most significant part among friends.

Maybe I should start sharing you guys about my inner and also deepest feelings of mine now? I think many of them (esp the eightest) are curious about my inners. I declared that Im not actually a good friend because you still failed to know me well although you know me for years.
Or should I say is that I failed myself for being a friend with you.

I have many friends. Im happy for that.
I often complained to them that I am not good enough and dont even have the qualifications to be labeled as a first class student, I even wrote in the school diary to xiaozhao. But all of them say I am that good, and I should not take this as a fluke because I worth it.

How come I dont think so.
I am not that intelligent, at least not as you think. I wouldnt stress myself in that class, because I clearly know that they are much more brilliant than me that I cannot approach to their unthinkable level. So the students who compare with them are stupids. Im not stupid, but I wonder why they will have such brilliant genes.

one day, i will travel overseas alone :)